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Monday, May 31, 2010

.....just.....






hehehehe....bosan ler.....
saje jer post gmbr i....and kuku i ni....
hahahahaha.....

talking about the worst.....that might happen....

hello...i'm back...
staying at home has made me a current issue's girl!!!!kekekekeke
and now the so-called-story about al-arqam again....what???not again?????
hell yeah!!!well few days ago....aku bace kt newspaper...u know...sal kes al-arqam la kan...
u know ape yg funny sgt????regarding the tsunami in ACHEH.....they said that it happens because....aiii...it happen because the abuya is mad...at Acheh's people..????why he's mad???
well abuya's second wife,khatijah am ( i guess...), said that org Acheh nyer behavior yg asyik wat maksiat yg wat abuya marah....coz' they said that Acheh is abuya's land????hohohohho weird hah???
actually dorg de wat buku sal ni...and just de jual kt Acheh jer....(wonder why???)
ader gak dorg tulis sal memula org2 kt Acheh berdoa minta tolong dengan ALLAH...tp x jadi ape2 pown....but then dorg mtk tolong or i can say yg dorg berdoa kpd Abuya....and dang!!!tsunami pun berenti...and dorg selamat!!!whoa!!!!!karutnyer!!!!!
what is wrong with this people????
how dare they questioned about ALLAH's power....and to say that they compared it to human...isn't it too much????....it might sound funny but seriously, this is just too much!!!
aku ni bukan la alim sgt kan....tp at least aku tau yg ALLAH tu sempurna...mane leh compare ngan kite...manusia biasa ni....and he's not even a RASUL....
those people....bile la dorg nk sedar....haiiiii....

owh and....lately aku concern sgt dgn hal bantuan ke GAZA...
hmmm....semoga dorg selamat sampai....
well byk sgt halangan kalo kite nk wat baik kan....
semoga ALLAH lindungi dorg sumer.....
Amin......

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

...i'm back.....

hah....so tired....
tired of everything....never thought that being a human is this tiring....
kekekekekeke...why am i complaining anywhere???nothing actually....i'm bored...really!!
now a days.....everything seems so weird....i mean about that al-arqam....and Thailand...
owh....what happen to this world!!!!!

funny if we read about al-arqam and their believes....
how come org yd da mati boley idup balik...kan???
well...that's what the believe....and thank god....i don't believe that!!!at all!!!!
i mean sape kiter nk persoalkan kuasa Tuhan kan???
but it is impossible yg org mati boley idup balik????right???
before i never thought that ape yg al-arqam percaya tu teruk sampai mcm ni sekali...
ye la...enough la yg dorg obses dgn ketua sendiri kan....but this is just too much!!!
syukur lah aku tak tergolong dlm golongan org yg sesat....
and aku harap kwn2 and everyone around me pun x mcm tuh....

about Thailand....watching the news...it almost unbelievable that things can be like that...
wow....my jaw almost dropped when i first heard about the "almost-so-called-war" that happen in Thailand!!!!....susah nk caye....da la dkt jer ngan our beloved country kan???
tu la yg jadi when human cannot think straight anymore....
like my mom said....they choose democracy...but they themselves violated the so-called democracy....
huah....the war will never stop if none of them are willing to accept the truth...
hai....but...sape aku yg nk masuk campur kan???
thank god yg sumer da settle skunk...hopefully nothing like this will ever happen again...

Saturday, May 8, 2010

its been a while.....

hey...its been a while....
got nothing to write here....even now....aigooo
its already 2.22 in the morning....and i'm here typing ...
and owh....skunk da kt umah!!!!yay!!!
kepada teman-teman serumahku yg masih belom pulang....jaga diri bebaik tau...
kekekekeke...


org ckp "people change"...for some odd reason....btol ke???
well i do change....at least for now....
u know...i have a very very very bad habit!!!
and i don't just get it recently....its become my habit since way back...
and i gotta tell u, it is a really weird, out of your mind, kinda habit...
and to tell the truth...i hate that habit of mine....
but its been a while since i "practiced" that habit....
guessed it because of my condition....
and today i tried to practically do that habit again!!!
i guess because it is a habit that it come naturally to me to suddenly want to do it...
but...to my surprise...i hate doing it...now...
can you believe it???it is my habit from long time before...
but suddenly my mind rejected it...
and the reason is simply that because i think it is "boring"...
hahahahaha...and i hope it will be forever...
so that now i do believe that people can change...people do change...
as we grow up....become more matured...then we started to think....
think about the foolish things we've done before...and how i wish that i can turn back time...
knowing that i can't,its hurt....my head hurt....my heart hurt too much...
but being the who i am right now....i'm learning to accept everything....
i am learning to accept everything that happened in the past....that happens just now....
and the thing that not yet to happen.....
its hard...coz its hurt...but i still learning...
learn to forget...learn to forgive....
learn to open up a little more....learn to be a better me....
and i'm still learning.....

Saturday, May 1, 2010

tired of being me......aigoooo


i'm so tired...
tired of being who i am...now...
tired of doing what i do...now...
tired of where i am...now....
tired of me....
tired of you...
tired of them...
tired of this world...
tired of this life....
tired of pretending...
tired of all the lies...
i'm just tired of everything...

someone...
can someone please saved me???
save me from this tiredness...
save me from feeling regret...
save from being me....
save me from being them...
just please come and save me...

i just want to be me...
but is this the real me???
am i being real...now???
or am i just become like them...plastic???
full of lies and pretentious???
if i'm not being honest, is it wrong??
if i lie because i want to keep my pride..is it wrong???
if i talk bad about others...is it wrong???
if i use inappropriate words...is it wrong???
if i don't wanna be friend with others...is it wrong???
if i hate them...is it wrong???
is it??....

i don't know anymore...
what my heart want and why my head can't take it...
what my head actually want...and why my heart opposed it??
what is it about me that i don't understand???
is my life messed up already???
no....i don't think so...
my life is ok...
it just me....

LIFE ISN'T ALWAYS FAIR....BUT ITS BEAUTIFUL AS IT IS...

urghh....life is so not fair!!!
how come they always got what they want and i got nothing??
i guess life is just not fair...at least for now...