its been a while.....

hey...its been a while....
got nothing to write here....even now....aigooo
its already 2.22 in the morning....and i'm here typing ...
and owh....skunk da kt umah!!!!yay!!!
kepada teman-teman serumahku yg masih belom pulang....jaga diri bebaik tau...
kekekekeke...


org ckp "people change"...for some odd reason....btol ke???
well i do change....at least for now....
u know...i have a very very very bad habit!!!
and i don't just get it recently....its become my habit since way back...
and i gotta tell u, it is a really weird, out of your mind, kinda habit...
and to tell the truth...i hate that habit of mine....
but its been a while since i "practiced" that habit....
guessed it because of my condition....
and today i tried to practically do that habit again!!!
i guess because it is a habit that it come naturally to me to suddenly want to do it...
but...to my surprise...i hate doing it...now...
can you believe it???it is my habit from long time before...
but suddenly my mind rejected it...
and the reason is simply that because i think it is "boring"...
hahahahaha...and i hope it will be forever...
so that now i do believe that people can change...people do change...
as we grow up....become more matured...then we started to think....
think about the foolish things we've done before...and how i wish that i can turn back time...
knowing that i can't,its hurt....my head hurt....my heart hurt too much...
but being the who i am right now....i'm learning to accept everything....
i am learning to accept everything that happened in the past....that happens just now....
and the thing that not yet to happen.....
its hard...coz its hurt...but i still learning...
learn to forget...learn to forgive....
learn to open up a little more....learn to be a better me....
and i'm still learning.....